Can I Love You ?

I gave my heart to you

I set my standards high

I laid my eyes on you,

I laughed and cried with you,

I told you my hopes and dreams,

My Love and Fears.

My tears I shed all over your shoulder.

In the end,

I came to see that you were

the only guy I could ever trust.

When I see you,

my face lights up with aspiration, and happiness.

When we talk, I can feel the load unload

with soothing words from you.

I have the feeling of love in my heart.

In my mind, I say "You don't mean a thing. "

In my words, I say "You are just a friend. "

But in the deep end of my heart,

I think of only you

When I tell you my expectations of a guy,

You tell me never to fall short of what I want.

But only one thing stands in the way -

You are a friend.

Can I still love you the way that I do?

Band of Joy  Compromising Positions

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I loved you without hope

I loved you once, nor can this heart be quiet;
For it would seem that love still lingers there;
But do not you be further troubled by it;
I would in no wise hurt you, oh, my dear.

I loved you without hope, a mute offender;
What jealous pangs, what shy despairs I knew!
A love as deep as this, as true, as tender,
God grant another may yet offer you.

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I am not yours

I am not yours,
not lost in you,
Not lost,
although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I,
who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

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I still love you as my own

I was passing by your window
But you weren’t home
I was knocking at your door
But you give no attention
I was calling over the phone
But your line got no connection
I tried to walk with you everyday
But you just ignore me
I was calling your name even
But you only put it in vain
I give you my protection and love
But you never grab
I tried in your dreams
But you shot me off in whims
Well, I guess that would be my role
After you nailed me on the cross,
I still love you as my own.

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My little girl

You was my little girl.
She tried to give life a whirl,
But the Lord knew that she was His.
I had to be alright with this.

She was so tiny with a broken heart,
But that is fixed and she got a new start.
She is in heaven and that’s alright,
At least now she doesn’t have to fight.

She is with the Lord way up above,
Surrounded by His special love.
I know someday that I will stand,
With her and I hand in hand.

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My love is something separate

My love is something separate
From what we say or do.
Though we might have it out with words,
I’m still in love with you.

Just as waves ignore the rocks
On their way to shore,
And keep on coming even if
They see what lies in store,

So I will come, no matter what,
And break, and come again,
And break against your wilderness
Beyond all joy and pain.

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HeartBroken

If I could take my heart from my sleeve and
give it to you, too ease your pain, I would.
Together we have taught each other lessons
that have been a wall in front of our path.
Stopping us in our tracks, our own paths to
heaven.

Today is the day that I remember you
forever. The smile you gave to me now floods
with the river of my tears. I still love
you, but the rail that binds our vehicles to
time is pulling us apart.

I will never forget you, I will always be
with you, my mind never dies, but my body
must now part. Goodbye. I love you.

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I Awake

I awake one morning to find you gone,
No note, no word... no goodbye.

My world suddenly is so empty... so cold,
Missing the fullness and warmth you provided.

The days seem long... the nights even longer,
No smile comes to my face.

I wish for old times,
I pray for your return.

I hope one morning I shall never wake,
Never to bear another day alone.

Without you in my world,
My life is empty and cold.

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Day by Day

Floating down the river of life,
A raft my only shelter,
My clothes my only possessions,
I ponder my predicament.

Did I throw my life away,
Did life throw me away,
Did I lose the life I had,
Did my life change on me?

What happened to the days past,
What happened to my life as it was,
My arms lie empty when they once were full of love,
Thoughts of happiness are now thoughts of survival.

Each day I struggle on,
Each night I sleep alone,
Each breath is like my last,
Each dream is a nightmare.

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Goodbye

Losing my most treasured possession,
Stolen by someone unknown.
I must make this confession,
I will not sit by the phone.

The loss I have suffered is not so bad,
We were together for so long.
For some reason I do not feel sad,
For tomorrow I will sing a new song.

The loss of something I believed to be key,
Which should have cause me strife.
Has now in fact set me free,
To do what I want with my life.

I say goodbye to you,
Goodbye forever.
I'll find something new,
But you I'll always remember.

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You Let Me Go

You let me go,
You found someone new.
I just want you to know,
That I still love you.

You let me go,
You went away.
You did know,
That I wanted you to stay.

You let me go,
You didn't care.
You had to know,
You were my teddy bear.

My life is so empty,
Without my true love.
You should have kept me,
When push came to shove.

I think of you,
Most every night.
I wish I knew,
How to make things right.

I never will forget,
You and I.
From the first day we met,
Till the day I die.

Its hard to keep going,
Day after day.
Take comfort in knowing,
That I'll find a way.

I will move on,
I'll find someone new.
But my one chance is gone,
For someone like you.

You let me go,
You found someone new.
I just want you to know,
That I still love you.

Always in my Heart and Dreams,

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Tears Of Sadness

Tears of sadness
Are treating the pain
Which psychically isn't there
Sometimes I just cry bout noting

Then I'm stuck
I fight and I yell
I don't know how
But my mind wont let me

If I don't trust you
I call you
Then I got to cry
Cry of sadness


You tell me that everything is good
Then You treat my pain
Till I finally fall a sleep
And become happy again

I don't know how life would be
If u didn't exist
A world without you
The girl I love the most

My trust in you
Must grow further
But I knew from the beginning
That I want to Marry you

You are my love
I found you
I want to be with you
Forever in time.

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If Raindrops Were Tears

If raindrops were tears
And it rained every day,
The rain couldn't wash
My heartache away.

You're still my ideal;
My love never dies,
But it cuts to the bone--
What I see in your eyes.You want me to stop;
You want to be friends,
But you'll be my true love
Until breath and life ends.

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Is This What Love Is Is This What Love Is

Is this all we have together?
Is this what love really is,
Yelling through a quarrel
And making up with a kiss?Why can’t we get along?
Why do we have to fight?
We starve true love by day
And feed lust all through the night.I wish we’d settle down;
I wonder where peace went.
Why do we pick at each other;
Why can’t we be content?If this is what love is,
If tenderness has flown,
I’m thinking more and more,
It’s better to be alone.

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If I’d Never Met You

If I’d never met you,
I wouldn’t feel the pain
Of losing your sweet love;
I wouldn’t feel insane.But if I’d never met you,
I wouldn’t know the pleasure
Of ecstasy’s warm gifts
And memories to treasure.Now moving on with life,
I force a wistful grin,
Questioning what went wrong
And wondering what might have been.

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Now You’re Gone

Now that you’re gone, I realize
How much you meant to me.
My loss is wide as a starless night sky,
And deep as a stormy sea.

I miss the comfort of your sweet love,
Your absolute devotion;
Now I’m a fountain of endless tears,
A pool of sad emotion.

They tell me I should move on with life,
That time will heal my pain;
I smile and nod and agree with them,
While I slowly go insane.

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If Only

If only I had done the things
That keep true love alive,
I wouldn’t have to acknowledge now
That our love cannot survive.

If only I had described to you
The joy you brought to me,
Instead of bringing you complaints,
You wouldn’t have set me free.

If I had touched you, kissed you, Love,
If I had loved you stronger,
If I had appreciated you,
We would have lasted longer.

If I had often said to you,
"It’s you whom I adore,"
Perhaps you’d still be with me now,
If I had told you more.

If only I had treated you
As if we were best friends,
I wouldn’t be alone in grief,
As our faded love finally ends.

If only I didn’t have to say,
"If only, my love, if only,"
I wouldn’t be all by myself
So sorry, sad and lonely.

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Time to Say Goodbye

My heart is breaking in me;
It’s still you whom I adore;
My tears are overflowing:
You don’t love me anymore.I sleepwalk through each day;
I pray to heaven above,
Hoping you will change your mind,
But I know I’ve lost your love.I wish that things were different;
I wish it were the way it was,
But reality has no pity;
It just happens the way it does.Will I ever feel any better,
With days when I don’t cry?
No matter what, it’s time to say
Goodbye, my love, goodbye.

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You Were My Everything

You were my everything;
Now you’re gone.
I don’t have the strength
To carry on.Skies always seemed sunny
When you were here;
Now there’s nothing but gloom
In my atmosphere.I loved you so much;
You were all I had;
Now my whole world
Is depressing and sad.I’d like to start feeling
Other than blue,
But you were my everything,
What can I do?

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Is It Enough?

When we converse, it’s just surface stuff;
We say some words, but is it enough?
We get along; we rarely fight,
But where is the spark, the joy, the delight?
We’re settled into the same routine;
Sometimes I’d like to flee this scene.
Everything’s easy; we don’t have it rough,
But sometimes I wonder: Is it enough?

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